VIII:

Hmm, the "daily" thing is still not going that well... Gonna have to shape up a little.
I'm still feeling a bit down, my friend seem to have stopped talking to me completely and it's just a mess... I hate having him angry at me, especially for something I didn't do, but I don't know what to do about it... So yeah, feeling down, have lost my appetite and such... But hopefully things will turn out ok in the end...

On a slighty less gloomy subject, I'm going to visist my family later today, my sister is going to sing at a school musical tomorrow, so of course I have to see that. I'm feeling a bit proud of her :)

To be honest, I don't really feel like writing right now, so it'll just be a short one. I will try to write again later to make up for the fact that I didn't write yesterday...

VII: Trust

Didn't write yesterday because of some personal stuff, and being busy. As you might have collected from my previous post, I'm a little down.

The subject of today's post will be colored by that. The subject is trust. It's such a tricky thing... You might know who you trust, but in theory, you can't know who you -can- trust. That's what's trust is all about. We often portrait it very black and white... Who can you trust and who can't you... And either you trust someone or you don't. I really don't think it's that simple. To the question of if you can trust someone... Well, I'm not gonna comment on that right now. This is more about if you actually trust someone. The reason I talk about this right now, is because someone I care a lot about doesn't trust me. He think I might have done something to hurt him, even though I would never, ever do that. And I can't prove that I didn't do it. I don't even have the smallest explanation to what could actually have happened, it's all a mystery for me. I can't blame him for not trusting me, because the situation could look as if I've done something. Maybe not intentionally cruel, but then at least thoughtless, that ended up hurting someone unintended. And if I really had, I would ask for forgivness... But I haven't, I know it's just my word, but I haven't done anything that could have this effect. Which against means that either someone is lying, or there's one of my friends who's hacked my computer or something... Which means there's someone -I- can't trust.
It's all very confusing. As I said, I can't blame him for not trusting me, because I don't have anything to prove that I didn't do it. Except for the fact that it would be unfathomly stupid of me, because there's every risk of it comig back to bite me if I actually -had- done it. And you can call me much, but I'm not -that- stupid. And even more: I know his situation, I'm pretty much in the same, and I would -HATE- if someone did to me, what was done to him. I would be so angry and frustrated, and I would probably lash out too... Even if it hurts me, a lot, that he's angry with me fr something I haven't done... That I can't make him believe that I didn't do it.
Now, here comes the question about if you trust someone or not. Because he say he an't trust me... And from his point of view, he can't. Only I know that he can, and what can I do with that? That doesn't really help anything, he's still hurt and angry and doesn't know if I'm lying, and I'm still hurt and confused and paranoid.
I don't know what I can say to make the situation better. I wish there was some thing I could say to make him believe me, but I can't... I hate to see him in pain, I hate it ore because I think I might have caused it.

I don't know what to do...

VI: I'm the soulweeper

This is pretty mcuch how I feel. In reverse kind of.


Soulweeper by Volbeat:


Well I found you girl, and see how it turned
I'm so sorry that I put your heart on fire
But I love you too
And I know I should've told you
Way back then
That I wasn't ready yet

So sad, so afraid, so frantic
I'm the soulweeper
So sad, so afraid, so frantic

Well I thought I was
Bursted for this one
I'm a fool in pain
and I feel so ashamed
Well I always said
Nothing was meant to be
And I still do baby
And I don't like to be

So sad, so afraid, so frantic
I'm the soulweeper
So sad, so afraid, so frantic

Well a new day is born and I like it
Long lost pictures come to life one more time
Well I know that you sit alone, and that hurts
But we'll always be friends, that's for sure

So sad, so afraid, so frantic
I'm the soulweeper
So sad, so afraid, so frantic

V: Valentine

Gonna go ahead a do the biggest cliché ever. A semi-depressed valentines blog. Or, well, more extremely bored than really depressed, but you get the idea.
You always think that Valentines day is nicer when you have a boyfriend, right? Well, it isn't really, when your boyfriend's too busy playing music with some other girl than to be with me. Now, I'm actually not jalous. I know a lot of people will think that, but really, we have a ery... Non-jalous relationship. The point is more that he is too busy with her to even have dinner with me. Despite the fact that we've seen eachother what, 6 times the last two months? A bit more this week, but still... Not that much. And yes, I know Valentines day is just made up by flower salesmen or something, and yes, I know it's stupid to celebrate it, and I know that's how he think. But no matter who is behind it, how commercial it is... I like the idea of setting a bit of time off to celebrate eachother... Appreciate eahother. You can do it every day if you want, but face it or not, relationships tend to get... into a daily rutine, just like everything else. There's nothing wrong with that, not at all, but to take just a few days a year, valentines day, your annivesery, to have a nice dinner, talk, concentrate on eachother. Of course we can do it everyday, but... There is something romantic about Valentine's day, isn't there?
And since he is busy, he could have send me a rose or something... Doesn't have to be fancy, it really -is- the thought that counts... I have to adit, I am a romantic... I love stuff like that, and even though my boyfriend can actually be quite romantic as well, it's not that often, and it's not like that... Sigh...


Anyway, now this is getting depressing :P the fact is, I'm just really bored, and that makes me a little bitter :p Waiting for the Sims 2 to finish installing so I can outlive the silly romances I can't gt myself on the computer instead. Yay ^^

IV: My new bass

I bought a bass today. Don't ask where I got the money, my bank is too patient :P
Anyway, it's black and shiny and really nice ^^ I don't know how to play it yet, but I'll learn.
Some might know that I'e been playing cello for many years, I got a cello though I don't play that much at the moment. But I really miss playing music, and I miss playing with other people. And though I love my cello, I've for a while wanted to play something that was easier to just go out and... Play... That didn't need that much preparation... And bass is just such an awesome instrument!
Alex sometimes says that he'd loe to see me on a stage sometimes, when we're doing the dishes and listening to music, because I'm also bouncing up and down and playing airguitar.. I think it could be interesting too. I sometimes think it could be fun to play in a metal band, just to be completely different from what that kind of bands often look like. If there is a female, she's always a singer, and she's always wearing some huge, gothic gown. It can look awesome, I admit that, but at the same time, I think it could be so much fun standing on the stage, playing some heavy kind of music wearing my bunnyjumper. Or a pink miniskort and with pigtails in my hair.

Though to be honest, I don't really know what kind of music i'd like to play... I listen to so many different kinds, everything could be fun really... And I guess I need to find a band first...

Oh... And learn to play ^^

III: Boots

I got new boots and made the HUGE mistake of wearing them yesterday.. Without bringing any bandaid. This might sound a little strange, but if you know me, it's really... Stupid... On eof my friends always make fun of me, because half of the time, my shoes/boots are killing me!
Now, you might say that the problem is that I buy the wrong kind of boots, buy them to small or too inpractical, trust me, I've heard that millions of times. That's -not- the case. I don't know exactly what it is, maybe I just have weird bones in my feet or something, maybe my skin is thin, I don't know what it is, but when ever I get a new pair of shoes or boots I spend the first couple of weeks in extreme pain, I get blisters and soars to the point where I can't really walk anymore. We're not talking a small innocent blister, we're talking blood. Ouch. So of course I should get used to always have a pack of bandaid in my bag, because if I put that on the space where the boot is pressing, it's usually not that bad. But no, of course I forget. So now, I am once again having open soars on both ankles. But at least I also got some quicklhealing bandaid here. That helps a lot ^^

II: About me

A proper introduction would probably be an idea. I don't really like writing stuff like this, it always seem a little boring to me, but... Yeah, some people might want to know more stuff about the facts of me...

As you might/might not know, my name is Katrine and I live in Århus in Denmark. The boring facts, yes. I'm taking a Bachelor in Digital Design, and I'll probably take a master as well, though I'm still not sure what I want to do with it. There'll probably be more about that in my blog later a few times.
I come from a relatively large family, at least in danish standards, being the oldest of five kids, I have 3 younger sisters and a brother. Pretty standard, happy family, loving parents, all that, not much to tell there right now. I moved out around 2 years ago, when I was 19, which of course makes me 21 now. My birthday is the 9th of may (more boring facts, but maybe someone will want to wish me a happy birthday then ^^).

I'm in a relationship with a guy named Alex, and have been for roughly 2½ year. He's making music... And stuff... Oh yeah, fascinating :P


So, let's look at what I do in my freetime and such. I've never really been much for sports and such, I've always enjoyed the creative stuff a lot more. I played cello during my childhood, I have a cello that I sitll play sometimes, though not as much as I woud like. I draw a little, recently bought a tablet, that I truly love. One of my favorites though is writing. Currently, it's mainly fanfic for various MMO's, but also some poems and shrtstories.
And yes, then I play computergames, mainly MMORPG's (Massively Multiplayer Online RolePlaying Game). I've been playing a few over the past years, currently looking for something new as I'm feeling terribly bored with the ones I got.

Of pets, I currently have two rats and a mouse, and if I feel like it, I'll make a post about them sometime.

But yeah, this is actually really boring, so I'm gonna end the introduction here, cause I all the tie feel like writing about something else.

See ya.

I: The thoughts behind the blog

This is hopefully the first day of my daily blog project that will last… Well, hopefully for a long time. I’m on the net everyday anyway, so I figured I might as well spend some time writing a little about… Well… What ever comes into my mind.

I guess I should introduce myself? Or maybe there is soe sort of “about the blogger” option somewhere, I need to look around a little more.

I’e never really been much of a blogger before, always figured well, why would people read about my thoughts about stuff, I’m not really that interesting. But maybe I am sometimes anyway, I don’t know, or maybe someone will feel I am.

Now, I’ll look around before I post a hole lot about myself as I said, but I’ll tell a little about what my plans with this blog is. It’s not gonna be about sharing all my thougts about everything on the internet. You never know who might be reading.

It will be about all those very wise thoughts I often get (and that Alex (my boyfriend) has been forced to listen to), that are probably not that wise, but meh, they make me feel philosophical, so I guess it’s okay.

It will be about what’s going on in my life, what I do from day to day, what my plans and maybe dreams are, you know, all the regular stuff.

I’ll also try to post a picture of the clothes I wear everyday, partly because I think I got some cool clothes, because I’m a huge narcissist (charming, I know), and partly because that hopefully will inspire me to actually -wear- this cool clothes everyday. And then it will hopefully also get me started on writing some more.