VII: Trust

Didn't write yesterday because of some personal stuff, and being busy. As you might have collected from my previous post, I'm a little down.

The subject of today's post will be colored by that. The subject is trust. It's such a tricky thing... You might know who you trust, but in theory, you can't know who you -can- trust. That's what's trust is all about. We often portrait it very black and white... Who can you trust and who can't you... And either you trust someone or you don't. I really don't think it's that simple. To the question of if you can trust someone... Well, I'm not gonna comment on that right now. This is more about if you actually trust someone. The reason I talk about this right now, is because someone I care a lot about doesn't trust me. He think I might have done something to hurt him, even though I would never, ever do that. And I can't prove that I didn't do it. I don't even have the smallest explanation to what could actually have happened, it's all a mystery for me. I can't blame him for not trusting me, because the situation could look as if I've done something. Maybe not intentionally cruel, but then at least thoughtless, that ended up hurting someone unintended. And if I really had, I would ask for forgivness... But I haven't, I know it's just my word, but I haven't done anything that could have this effect. Which against means that either someone is lying, or there's one of my friends who's hacked my computer or something... Which means there's someone -I- can't trust.
It's all very confusing. As I said, I can't blame him for not trusting me, because I don't have anything to prove that I didn't do it. Except for the fact that it would be unfathomly stupid of me, because there's every risk of it comig back to bite me if I actually -had- done it. And you can call me much, but I'm not -that- stupid. And even more: I know his situation, I'm pretty much in the same, and I would -HATE- if someone did to me, what was done to him. I would be so angry and frustrated, and I would probably lash out too... Even if it hurts me, a lot, that he's angry with me fr something I haven't done... That I can't make him believe that I didn't do it.
Now, here comes the question about if you trust someone or not. Because he say he an't trust me... And from his point of view, he can't. Only I know that he can, and what can I do with that? That doesn't really help anything, he's still hurt and angry and doesn't know if I'm lying, and I'm still hurt and confused and paranoid.
I don't know what I can say to make the situation better. I wish there was some thing I could say to make him believe me, but I can't... I hate to see him in pain, I hate it ore because I think I might have caused it.

I don't know what to do...